It's interesting. Up until it happens you don't understand, you can't understand. You're just dealing with the reality of M's stomach getting bigger. Feeling the kicks and movements from inside. Waiting, waiting, waiting...
Then the day comes. People tell you it all changes. On a certain level, you understand that they're right. You don't really get it though until that moment. That moment when it does actually all change.
You can't fool me, I saw you when you came out.
It's true. That moment when you came out... everything changed. I didn't realize just how much it would until it did. I didn't know how I'd react until it did. Suddenly, you popped out of the water, out of the sac, and my eyes erupted with tears. My body shook. We heard you. You had your first breath, your first cry. Something clicked. Suddenly I knew that myself or your mother weren't the most important things anymore. The most important thing was you.
It was a long long day.
It started about 3am. Your Mom didn't want to wake me. She tried texting me to wake me up. Didn't work.
We woke up Grandma and called the doula. She arrived by 4am and we were getting ready to go.
It was a long day. It was a hard day. It was such a rewarding day.
I'll tell you. When I watched everything that your Mom went through yesteday, I had to thank my own Mom (your Grandma) for doing the same for me many many years ago.
Your Mom spent most of the day in the birthing tub. Waiting for you to decide to come out. We had the unfortunate event of suddenly having roofers the last two days fixing the roof. Bang bang bang all day long.
It wasn't until the second they left that things started to move forward. Move forward they certainly did. I wanted to reach out, to rub her back, to help her in any way I could... but at the same time, I was concerned that if I even touched her, I'd lose my hand. In the very end, I got into the tub with her. She held my arms, pushed hard against me with every surge... and then out you popped.
You did the Superman pose. Hand over your head. Pushing out into the world.
Didn't exactly make it easy on your Mom, but she's amazing and she pulled through. Then, as I said above... there was that moment.
I swear to you that I will always be there for you. For both of us, you are the most important thing in our world. Everyone is thrilled to meet you. We're going to lay low for a couple weeks. Enjoy you all for ourselves. Then we'll start letting the outside world back in.
I'll tell you as well. Grandma Lobster was amazing. I'm so glad we had her here. I don't know what we would have done without her. She's thrilled to have another grandson.
We're thrilled to have you.
PS: Everyone loves your name
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