You're four days old today.
As these things are counted.
In a way it's still all surreal. The amazing fact that you were inside your mother for all that time. All that build up. All that waiting. When we could just feel your kicks through her stomach.
Now you're here in our arms.
You've owned our hearts from the second you entered our world.
Things I would never have considered cute... Suddenly they are. There's something about someone pooping on your for the first time. With any other person, I'd be kind of offended by it. With you, it's completely ok. It happened in the first hour you were out by the way.
There's even something damn cute about watching a four day old fart. The expression on your face. The concentration... the build up... and suddenly the toot. It's adorable.
Things I had initially worried about. Cleaning diapers non-stop. Needing sleep. These things suddenly aren't issues.
The first two nights, you didn't much want to sleep between 1am & 3:30am. I held you in my arms and danced around the room calming you until I was almost ready to fall down. Mom got her sleep. She needed it... That's important.
Last night you let us sleep all night. In fact that's kind of your M.O. right now. You eat, you sleep, you poop and repeat.
You make little warthog noises in your sleep. Little snorts. Again, they are adorable.
You've met both your Grandmothers. You met your Aunt Jess. Tomorrow Uncle Mike flies in from NY.
You're surrounded by love and good people. That's important. These are the things that are important to us and we will make the foundation of your life.
We love you madly. More than we knew we could. It's only been four days.
Just wait til four years... four decades... it'll all be the same.
Monday, April 9, 2012
Friday, April 6, 2012
Kasper arrives
Yesterday you joined us in the world.
It's interesting. Up until it happens you don't understand, you can't understand. You're just dealing with the reality of M's stomach getting bigger. Feeling the kicks and movements from inside. Waiting, waiting, waiting...
Then the day comes. People tell you it all changes. On a certain level, you understand that they're right. You don't really get it though until that moment. That moment when it does actually all change.
You can't fool me, I saw you when you came out.
It's true. That moment when you came out... everything changed. I didn't realize just how much it would until it did. I didn't know how I'd react until it did. Suddenly, you popped out of the water, out of the sac, and my eyes erupted with tears. My body shook. We heard you. You had your first breath, your first cry. Something clicked. Suddenly I knew that myself or your mother weren't the most important things anymore. The most important thing was you.
It was a long long day.
It started about 3am. Your Mom didn't want to wake me. She tried texting me to wake me up. Didn't work.
We woke up Grandma and called the doula. She arrived by 4am and we were getting ready to go.
It was a long day. It was a hard day. It was such a rewarding day.
I'll tell you. When I watched everything that your Mom went through yesteday, I had to thank my own Mom (your Grandma) for doing the same for me many many years ago.
Your Mom spent most of the day in the birthing tub. Waiting for you to decide to come out. We had the unfortunate event of suddenly having roofers the last two days fixing the roof. Bang bang bang all day long.
It wasn't until the second they left that things started to move forward. Move forward they certainly did. I wanted to reach out, to rub her back, to help her in any way I could... but at the same time, I was concerned that if I even touched her, I'd lose my hand. In the very end, I got into the tub with her. She held my arms, pushed hard against me with every surge... and then out you popped.
You did the Superman pose. Hand over your head. Pushing out into the world.
Didn't exactly make it easy on your Mom, but she's amazing and she pulled through. Then, as I said above... there was that moment.
I swear to you that I will always be there for you. For both of us, you are the most important thing in our world. Everyone is thrilled to meet you. We're going to lay low for a couple weeks. Enjoy you all for ourselves. Then we'll start letting the outside world back in.
I'll tell you as well. Grandma Lobster was amazing. I'm so glad we had her here. I don't know what we would have done without her. She's thrilled to have another grandson.
We're thrilled to have you.
PS: Everyone loves your name
It's interesting. Up until it happens you don't understand, you can't understand. You're just dealing with the reality of M's stomach getting bigger. Feeling the kicks and movements from inside. Waiting, waiting, waiting...
Then the day comes. People tell you it all changes. On a certain level, you understand that they're right. You don't really get it though until that moment. That moment when it does actually all change.
You can't fool me, I saw you when you came out.
It's true. That moment when you came out... everything changed. I didn't realize just how much it would until it did. I didn't know how I'd react until it did. Suddenly, you popped out of the water, out of the sac, and my eyes erupted with tears. My body shook. We heard you. You had your first breath, your first cry. Something clicked. Suddenly I knew that myself or your mother weren't the most important things anymore. The most important thing was you.
It was a long long day.
It started about 3am. Your Mom didn't want to wake me. She tried texting me to wake me up. Didn't work.
We woke up Grandma and called the doula. She arrived by 4am and we were getting ready to go.
It was a long day. It was a hard day. It was such a rewarding day.
I'll tell you. When I watched everything that your Mom went through yesteday, I had to thank my own Mom (your Grandma) for doing the same for me many many years ago.
Your Mom spent most of the day in the birthing tub. Waiting for you to decide to come out. We had the unfortunate event of suddenly having roofers the last two days fixing the roof. Bang bang bang all day long.
It wasn't until the second they left that things started to move forward. Move forward they certainly did. I wanted to reach out, to rub her back, to help her in any way I could... but at the same time, I was concerned that if I even touched her, I'd lose my hand. In the very end, I got into the tub with her. She held my arms, pushed hard against me with every surge... and then out you popped.
You did the Superman pose. Hand over your head. Pushing out into the world.
Didn't exactly make it easy on your Mom, but she's amazing and she pulled through. Then, as I said above... there was that moment.
I swear to you that I will always be there for you. For both of us, you are the most important thing in our world. Everyone is thrilled to meet you. We're going to lay low for a couple weeks. Enjoy you all for ourselves. Then we'll start letting the outside world back in.
I'll tell you as well. Grandma Lobster was amazing. I'm so glad we had her here. I don't know what we would have done without her. She's thrilled to have another grandson.
We're thrilled to have you.
PS: Everyone loves your name
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